While this will appear to be somewhat disjointed–and perhaps it is–this article needs a bit of a prelude to explain what happened in the months between the August 2010 Independence Day celebrations for both India and Pakistan and when I finally posted the Pakistan 2010 Solar Return in late February 2011 even though I’d posted India’s on time. So I’ll post my initial notes, or rather the notes that became the long overdue Pakistan Solar Return for 2010 before moving into the actual Solar Return. In this sense, I suppose you can say this serves as the “birthing” process of what happened as I was seeing the chart so many months into the 2010 Return. What I couldn’t see in July and August 2010 became an eye-opener for me six months later.
Despite my repeatedly, sternly telling myself over the last six months that there was no turning back or running away, it was time, right now to look at Pakistan’s Solar Return for the remainder of the year before its next “birthday,” I have struggled to find the time and energy to do this reading. Especially this time, I admit India’s and Pakistan’s Solar Returns are so close, it’s very difficult to read them as two separate entities. So perhaps as a result, I kind of fell into the trap of being unable to read one after the other. Every time I tried to get a better idea of what held me back, however, I fell short of understanding.
I started to write this at the same time I was writing India’s Solar Return analysis in July, but the flow was just missing. I don’t try to understand the rare occasions when this occurs, I just accept that it does.
Not to leave Pakistan out of the mix, and also using the natal chart with the same transiting Grand Cross against it, the Jupiter and Uranus conjunction falls in what’s called an interception in the 12th house, in opposition to an intercepted 6th house stellium (3 or more planets conjunct) of Moon, Saturn, Venus and Mars, squared by the natal Moon in the 3rd and opposed by Pluto in the 9th.
In addition, the nation’s second house natal Mars-Uranus conjunction (emphasis on Mars here) forms an out-of-sign square to the transiting 6th house stellium, the transiting 12th house Jupiter-Uranus conjunction and the opposition to 9th house Pluto–and because of all these transits, that creates a bridge to form a conjunction between the 2nd house Mars-Uranus and 3rd house natal Moon. This time, the focus is on the Moon because Pakistan’s natal Moon is drawn into that Grand Cross with the Solar Return Moon. This does not bode well for the country.
What held me back was my own hope that a delay might make it clearer for me, less negative in my mind…but there’s no getting around this: I just don’t feel good about this one.
Back in July when I tried to start developing this, I apparently was also looking at the nation’s Lunar Return because it didn’t feel good. There were minor shifts between the chart I was looking at and the Lunar Return. The two were separated by 14 minutes, in fact. What did change was a shift from an Aries rising to a Taurus rising within 2° of the natal chart’s rising, bringing Venus more into the focus, but the planets didn’t change any houses. It felt so much like it did a couple of years ago, when I warned that Pakistan wasn’t ready for a total democracy. I wrote in July, “It seems like this will be more proof of that.”
As I look back to that period, still without plunging into the charts that have to be reprinted because I can’t find them in the maze of paperwork on my desk, I think of the Mars-Neptune conjunction that took place in July and wonder when the flooding started in Pakistan. This may be something worth noting. I just wish I had a solid date for that tragic nightmare…
I can’t, for the life of me, figure out why I didn’t realize I had done this, but I hadn’t noticed (although I had written it) that I never switched the natal chart to the outside of the Solar Return chart. Making the transitions with that minor (not so minor! it’s major!) detail, everything kind of slapped me in the face:
Despite the tensions I was seeing in the chart, nothing was connecting because I was looking at the wrong houses–and the wrong timing. The last several months have been uneasy but nothing one could really call earth-shattering from the perspectives of those living in Pakistan. Now, things appear to be coming to a head again, and I see the timings here.
[I even found my little reminders at the base of those notes today, May 1, 2016, to show the sequence of what I was seeing back then.
look at mid-April (22 GE 30) to early May (ca 25 GE) – natal UR/MA conj MC (mid-March to early April shows GE MC squaring Part of Fortune and Merc in VI 13-16 VI)
Mid-May – MC is at 0 CA in square to SR Moon at 0 LI and UR at 0 AR – stellium section of MO/SA/VE/MA between mid-May and mid-June (Grand Cross 3/6/9/12 activation from May through July)
Early June – MC around 3 CA in opp to SR PL at 3 CP on IC
Mid-June – MC at 7 CA 30 in sq to SR MA at 8 LI 30
Early July – Natal MO conj MC – 11 CA
And then came the Solar Return itself as it was published back then.]
Long overdue: Pakistan’s 2010 Solar Return
For the longest time, I have struggled to get exactly what I was missing when I plunged into the Pakistan Solar Return chart. Now I suppose I could bury this, but the fact is…this major faux pax is something that could happen to anyone and is an important lesson for anyone interested in learning astrology:
Maybe my eyes were playing tricks on me, or perhaps I was just lulled into seeing things that would flit in and out of my brain. I couldn’t seem to focus and couldn’t figure out what was wrong. Most of the time, I figured the flow was missing because I had been working on India’s Solar Return at the same time. But where India’s Solar Return flowed for me, this simply fell flat.
This week, I was absolutely stunned when I discovered what was wrong all this time: I had been looking at the natal and Solar Return charts as if the Solar Return was a simple transit instead of as important as it was! So different, and so critically important–enough that it virtually crippled me all these months and, even with more than 25 years of experience under my belt, I had taken it all for granted.